It was true and he knew it was true but he didn't like to engage with it. Last time he tried to think about it all logically and considered what was happening here, his heart got tight and he couldn't breathe for about five minutes so yeah, no, he didn't really want to deep dive but he wasn't happy. He was a joke to people and they talked down about him, said he had one foot in the grave and so what if he did? He'd sooner die working than ever retire.

Reaching out, he grabbed Kian by his suit and yanked him up, using the fact that he had some weight at his advantage to make him actually get to his feet. He shoved him roughly across the room and sneered at him. "Pack the fuck up, we can go. I don't think I can drive, my eyes are like looking into a disco ball right now. Shimmering and fucking messed up." Probably the pills.